The start of a beautiful Freindship!

Im soooo happy/ worried

2006-08-05T23:31:42Z

We are still talkin online!! Its been two weeks now and things are getting better and better. Bless him hes sooo sensitive. If i dont i,m him within a certain time he gets really insecure.
My ex ordered some removal boxes so its official he is moving out. I havent heard from him since yesterday.I find that odd cause i usually here from him loads during the day. He hasnt even answered my texts i sent him so im not impressed. I am happy with him sayin he wont stand in my way of building a relationship.
Ive just had a download fest.. does anyone want any songs?
I bidded on a place i really really want across the road, its ideal. Im prayin to god i get it.
Mark says i have to sleep over at his place on night.,It will have to be when darrens gone i just want to help him pack and get him out.

Yes ok he helps me with rent but the tension is bad in a way knowing hes still in love with me.

Im soo tired, ive just taken my pills. Im goin to say good night to mark and then im off to bed to watch sex and the city.
I havent been out since friday. we have no food and no drink in the house. Im goin to have to get my arse in gear.

day 9

2006-08-02T21:15:56Z

Hes online tomorow!! I havent spoken to him since friday the 28th i think it was. he said he was going away with his motorbike buddies and won tbe online till thursday night when hes working. he dosnt own a pc so he uses works.
Im so anxious. Im worried he wont remember me. Im worried hes not bothered. I dont want to seem pushy i jut want to know if we are going somewhere or not.

Ill let ya know.

day two.

2006-07-31T18:40:42Z

I have been waiting all day to talk to mark! Hes online at about 7 30pm.

heres an extract from our conversation....

HIM; i will ride to yours soon, if thats ok
ME; HMM if hes not here grrrrr
HIM; No rush b, just tell me when.
ME: I just cant wait till hes gone for good then i can see you.
HIM: And then what?
ME: Well im yours if you want me?
HIM: OH YES!!
Me: SMILE
HIM: Would ou want me? Your not just teasing are you?
ME: Ive ddone nowt but think of you all day!Would i seriously send you ecards ands stuff if i wasnt bothered?
HIM: I like it! Meet Me?
ME: Sure just name the date time and place
HIM: I will no probs
ME: You might not like me whn i meet ya
HIM: We myt meet and fall head over!
ME: Heehee i have already!
HIM: yummy and your smooth!.. even better!!
ME: Im serious what if we meet and your like errmm i dont fancy you.
HIM: Im not like that. you seem dead awesome to me!

Thats the extract for today!! How have you been/

Day one..

2006-07-30T23:38:14Z

It all started about 7.30pm.
The date.. 25th july 2006.

I was just messing around on Msn when i gt an i,m. Its a guy asking if i added him. I dont remember the username so i say im not sure.
He then adds a picture and YEP! i remember!!
I dont know what it was but SOMETHING made my heart flip the minute i saw his picture on a voting hot or not site.
It was just something, a feeling that i must add this guy for some reason.
We started chatting and i found out alsorts.
He was working nights as a security person at some solicitors, hes never been married, no kids, no front just himself. enjoys the gym and has a love for his moterbike.
He loves the outdoors, loves been loved and shown affection, very soft at heart.
We ended up talking for about 6 hours in all!!
Hes just different, he didnt once mention sex. He lives in another town near me. He has his own flat. No resposibilities except work. hes not out searching for anyone but if he does find someone then thats a bonus.

Im not rushing into anything but i have a good feeling about this.

Heres a clip from our conversation:

Him; so whatdya like ina relationship?
me: In what way?
Him; When your with sum1 whatdya like?
Me; Cuddles hugs touches, i dont like been touched sexually all the time, i just like to be close.
Him: Ditto, i like baths 2gether, lie ins, cuddles
me: Me too! I dont like been taken as a sex thing all the time.
Him: Dont like arguments or headgames.
Me; If i say no, i dont want moods when i say no i mean it.
Him; Im just me
Me: I dont smoke and i like nice smells.
Him; I dont smoke and i always wear aftershave
Me; I dont have one favourite song.
Him; Nice 1, you seem pretty easy to get on with.
Me; Im just easy to get on with, nothing speacial
Him; Wow, i could really get to like you!
If we get along who knows what cud happen.

So that was a clip from our first conversation. I will be adding clips every day.

Who knows!! Fingers crossed.